Live High

Inspired by Jason Mraz’s Live High

Trying to look at that girl
Through my window glass
She looks very pretty
And I know she can feel my eyes

On her, Oh she won’t be able
Not to notice, how much I already am
In love, Yes in love I tell you
Because that girl is someone, I hold close to my heart

She’s the only person, who can feel my heartbeat
Even if I’m a thousand miles away
It doesn’t matter, wherever I may be
Because the connection between is this strong you see

I can’t even explain it
How can I even try to start to
I guess that’s how much in love I am
Oh yes that’s how much in love I am

She makes me
live high
live mighty
live righteously

The Last Day

So it has finally come. After 2 years and 3 months, I finally seal the official deal ending my wonderful experience in my first job after getting a Bachelor’s degree. I’m now 23 years old, strong and capable. Skilled and sharp. Cunning and hungry. I entered when I was 21. Curious and excited, unaware what does the world outside the walls of college can offer. Little did I know that it can make the best out of you the same way as it can bring out the worst. Staying here at my desk for the last time made me think a lot. It kind of makes me remember the good times I spent here in the office. There were good times, and there were awesome times. I got drunk, wild, and crazy. I became organized, skilled, and persuasive (which is quite a handy skill wherever I go ). I acquired lessons that are not really needed to have a successful career but are essential in having a good life. I was able to meet good people and make awesome friends. I’m very thankful that in the process of acquiring these things, I was able to find myself, my deeper self. Now I can say I know more about myself than I did 2 years ago. I can sure say that staying here for quite some time really honed my skills, but I believe those are just secondary. More than anything else, the most important learning I bring with me as I press the G button in the elevator later at 6pm is knowledge I have about myself. Priceless. Just priceless.

Now I move on to a different challenge in life. I have to use all the things I acquired from my first job to elevate to a whole new level. I’m not doing this out of competition, I’m simply doing this because it’s inevitable. We can only go up and up. It’s where we belong. We are all achievers by our own right and the universe is parallel with us when it comes to this.

Right universe?

Thank you, universe

The Reason Behind The Move

It’s inevitable. It’s bound to happen and it’s just a matter of time. More often than not I reminisce why am I doing this. What is the reason behind this big and literally far move of mine. I always tell myself and other people as well that I’m doing this because of the great opportunity it entails. It is true that not everyone is given such opportunity. But is it really just about that? Is it really just about the opportunity that may or may not be maximized?

At the most basic level, I’m doing this because it’s worth a try. Whatever it is that may happen here or there, I can genuinely tell and convince myself that what I’ll be doing is at the very least worth a shot. I’m young enough, I still have time, and more so, I’m open for anything that can happen. So I guess the question here now is that am I willing to ‘try’ a short-term investment for a long-term benefit. Again, the key word is ‘try’. I’m not sure what will and can happen once I get there but I do know that I’m the type of guy who simply knocks out all the challenges that face me.

Another reason behind the big move is all about my future. I’m very fortunate enough to be indulged in an environment full of forward-looking people. I guess I was always surrounded with a mature crowd that it reminds me that I need to be mature in all aspects in life. Also add to that the wonderful blessing of a very loving girlfriend who I can seriously see as my wife. No joke. I’m so in love like that. All these factors that take part of my environment make me see the future that is not so far away, a future full of potential, a future so colorful I can see it brightly right now. Even though I said that I’m not sure what will happen because of the big move, I do know that it can give me opportunities to keep the future bright and even brighter. I guess it’s all about sacrifice for now, sacrifice of convenience and comfort. It’s a decision involving high risks, but then again, high risks yield high returns.

I am taking small steps at a time. There are times when I feel very sad and lonely but whenever I do, I always look back to the reason why I’m doing this. It’s not just about grabbing the opportunity in front of me, it’s not just about being able to improve myself. It’s all about being able to live the life I plan to have in the very near future.

But behind all these reasons and assumptions for the result of this move, I remain a very simple guy and a firm believer that happiness can be found in simple things, right where you are right now, with the people you are with right now.

Summer Vacation

I have so much time in my hands. In 2 plus months, I’ll be experiencing something like a summer vacation and I plan to make the most out of it as the events that will happen after this entails a lot of limitations in terms of time and space and how I’ll be able to use these two elements. So now I’m planning the things that I want to accomplish in this 2 months and it’s quite exciting. I plan to write an entry at least once a day so that my mind won’t become dull from all the distractions that our current generation can offer. I also plan to make each day count as they are all very significant and limited. I know that life needs to move on and that I need to face the challenges that await me. I need to step out of my comfort zone, and it’s not just a little step, it’s such a big step. But I’m not too worried. As a matter of fact, I’m a bit excited because of the adventures that are only waiting for me to conquer, only waiting for me to make the most out of them.

I have a very strong feeling that this would be a great challenge not just for me but for the significant people in my life but at the same time, I also have a very strong feeling that since this is the case, it means I’m not alone with this, I have people to hold on to, people who will help me be my best, who will help me conquer these adventures, who will help me see the reason why the heck am I doing this, or better yet, why the heck is the universe making me do this. A lot of people say that it’s all about the right perspective. I agree. But I guess more than having the right perspective, I should also have the right inspirations and reasons for my actions and thoughts. I do believe that whatever it is that we do and whatever it is that we think, as long as we have the right reason and inspiration, it’s almost always that such action or such thought would trigger something amazing, something that would always give us strength to go on and on even if it’s so hard, even if it’s so difficult, even if it seems like we’re all alone.

So here’s to me making the most out of my ‘Summer Vacation’. I’m very excited because I know that at the end of this, something amazing awaits

God

I believe that I don’t necessarily need to be Roman Catholic and go to mass everyday Sunday.I don’t necessarily need to kneel and pray. I don’t necessarily need to preach, to listen, to immerse myself to something that is, according to other people, the right way of living. I don’t necessarily need to have a religion, a way of life, a goal, an ultimate goal, a reason to keep me going, an inspiration, true and genuine inspiration. I don’t necessarily need to believe what the bible says and in the same light, any other writing that is claimed to be an account of god. I don’t necessarily need to believe in apparitions, in miracles, exorcism, and in holy places. I don’t necessarily need to believe that there is an end to this world and that if I live rightly, I will be saved. I don’t necessarily need to believe in anything.

When I look outside my window and see the glowing bright stars synchronized with the calming sounds of the crickets, realizing that I’m under one big sky which is under one big galaxy, which is under anything that man haven’t discovered yet and other people from different places, different time zones, different perspectives are looking at the exact same sky with me, I feel that I’m just a spec in the universe. A tiny little spec whose weight and mass is literally insignificant to the galaxy. A tiny little spec whose life may not matter to millions of people on the other side of the world.

But even if I’m just a tiny little spec,why do I still feel significant, valuable, unique, and important?

What is the source of all this meaning? Who is the source?

When I see two rainbows mingling with each other or a wonderful sky where the clouds seem to spell my name or are shaped like a dog, a cat, a peacock, a kangaroo, a unicorn, a whale, I realize that no person existing and ever existed could ever do such thing.

But it has been done nonetheless.

Who did that?

When I close my eyes and amidst the darkness I can still see, and more often that not, clearer than with my eyes open, who gives me such sight?

What is that force we feel when we hug a person?

What is that energy that moves a person because of a touching song?

What makes writers write and singers sing? What makes the body move to a certain beat?

What makes me write the next word?

God

It must be God

Tags: God, inspiration

Closing Cycles by Paulo Coelho

I would like to share an article shared by my dad last night. I was talking with my family about a major decision I made and I keep on looking back if it’s the right decision, if it’s the best decision. I realized that however I try to convince myself that it is the best one, I am never completely satisfied. I guess when you become a young adult, when you reach the ‘quarter-life’, there will be no decision without consequences, and there will be no decision that would make you 100% satisfied. So much are involved. You can decide for yourself, but can you decide for other people’s feelings and reactions? Can you really decide on something that would guarantee you complete happiness? Whenever we are placed in a crossroad and we need to decide whether to go right or left or even stay, there would always be what-ifs and doubts that make you look back. Should I have just gone right? Should I have just gone left? Should I have just stayed and waited?

Reading this article helped me stop the mind-war I’ve been having for quite some time.

Closing Cycles by Paulo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters – whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished. Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill. None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot forever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts – and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else. Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.” Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person – nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important. Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Tags: favorite, inspiration, inspirational

When Every Red Rose Becomes More Red – The Song

Almost 2 months ago, I wrote a poem for my girlfriend. You can view it here in my blog: http://khail360.wordpress.com/2010/05/24/when-every-red-rose-becomes-more-red/

For our first anniversary, my girlfriend gave me a very special gift. She took the words from my poem and turned it into lyrics for a song with the same title. I cried. It was the first time someone did that to me and being ultimately touched is an understatement.

You can listen to it here: http://www.zshare.net/audio/782560919e0f9d76/

So this is how it feels when your poem is turned into a song. It’s a great feeling, especially if the person singing is the inspiration for the poem you wrote.

You made me free, you made fly

You made me touch the stars and the sky

Everything I do I wanna do it for you

Can you be so in love like this?

Tags: favorite

Filipina Beauty

I have been around so many places
I have already seen hundreds of faces
But nothing compares to your beauty still
It’s pure, breath-taking, and so real

Your smile is full of passion
And it seems like there’s nothing else that I would need
Than to look at those lips forever
Makes me want to kiss you, the feeling is so intense indeed

Your eyes say a thousand words with one glance
And I can only guess what you want to do
It makes me give up and be captive
By your beauty that’s so true

One touch and I’m a prisoner
And I’ll rather be as long as it’s you
I would exchange a chance to fly if only
I could hold your hand and you hold back willingly

You’re slender body makes me go crazy
And the way you walk just kills me at a snap
Whatever it is that you may be wearing
In admiration, I’ll still throw my hat

The way you speak, nothing is more sexy
I’m secretly recording every word and tone
So that I can play it all over my mind again
It makes me feel so much at home

You’re smell is nothing less than captivating
And it can make me do things I don’t normally do
Your fragrance is more than compelling
Ask me to jump, I will before two

A lot of people may not see the way I see it
But this will forever hold true
The Filipina beauty is one of a kind
For it can make you fall, both your heart and your mind

Dedicated to all the beautiful Filipinas all over the world

Tags: beauty, filipina, filipina beauty

Writing

People say I’m good at words and I ask
Is this a talent that will really last?
Or is it something just to pass the time
Something generic, something only mine

I was proven wrong through the years
As writing gives me life like nothing does
And I know this gift should not be wasted
Words are powerful, it gives power to the incapacitated

So now I ask myself what should I do
With this talent that simply joins words in the air
Is it something I should just do on the side
Or should I dwell on it, should I abide?

With the calling in my heart that I should
Make the most out of the phrases I compose
It’s not the words but it’s the meaning within
The message conveyed in and out a man’s realm

I believe I should not because I’m good at it
I should because it’s a passion that fuels itself
It only requires a little bit of motivation
And a whole lot of inspiration

But that’s not a problem because as you can see
We can get inspired with everything around and within
And maybe that’s why I was able to write this
Just thinking about it gives me bliss

Tags: writing

When Every Red Rose Becomes More Red

I don’t mind waiting, I can wait
I know true love is never late
Even if the whole of life will separate me from you
Destiny is no match for us two

Time is already irrelevant when it comes to how I feel
It cuts across boundaries that are real
Can you be so in love like this?
Can you really find eternal bliss?

Yes you can and you made me believe
That love is so much more than a word indeed
It’s not just a feeling, an emotion, something you do
It’s that and everything that is about me and you

What is the ultimate sign?
How can I really define?
How much I cherish, how much I care
How gloomy I am when you’re not there

I guess there’s really no definition of terms
For whatever we have, we take it and make it into our own
A chair is never really just a chair
Love is never really just love when you are there

If my heart can speak it would have run out of words
If my head can feel it would have run out of emotions
You made me free, you made me fly
You made me touch the stars and the sky

You lift me up so high that I already don’t see
All the things that have limited me
And more so you have made me secure
My perpetual sickness, you are my cure

Do you know the feeling when your heart skips a beat?
Do you know the calmness you hear from nature’s creek?
I have always thought I already knew
But I was wrong, I should have waited for you

Before I told myself that I’m already happy
Before I thought my smile was really true
Now every red rose is more red, every blue sky is more blue
Everything I do, I just want to do it for you

Because you are the person I want to see
When I’m already old and wrinkly
I want to hold you forevermore
Because I know we won’t let go

Tags: inspiration, love