The Reason Behind The Move

It’s inevitable. It’s bound to happen and it’s just a matter of time. More often than not I reminisce why am I doing this. What is the reason behind this big and literally far move of mine. I always tell myself and other people as well that I’m doing this because of the great opportunity it entails. It is true that not everyone is given such opportunity. But is it really just about that? Is it really just about the opportunity that may or may not be maximized?

At the most basic level, I’m doing this because it’s worth a try. Whatever it is that may happen here or there, I can genuinely tell and convince myself that what I’ll be doing is at the very least worth a shot. I’m young enough, I still have time, and more so, I’m open for anything that can happen. So I guess the question here now is that am I willing to ‘try’ a short-term investment for a long-term benefit. Again, the key word is ‘try’. I’m not sure what will and can happen once I get there but I do know that I’m the type of guy who simply knocks out all the challenges that face me.

Another reason behind the big move is all about my future. I’m very fortunate enough to be indulged in an environment full of forward-looking people. I guess I was always surrounded with a mature crowd that it reminds me that I need to be mature in all aspects in life. Also add to that the wonderful blessing of a very loving girlfriend who I can seriously see as my wife. No joke. I’m so in love like that. All these factors that take part of my environment make me see the future that is not so far away, a future full of potential, a future so colorful I can see it brightly right now. Even though I said that I’m not sure what will happen because of the big move, I do know that it can give me opportunities to keep the future bright and even brighter. I guess it’s all about sacrifice for now, sacrifice of convenience and comfort. It’s a decision involving high risks, but then again, high risks yield high returns.

I am taking small steps at a time. There are times when I feel very sad and lonely but whenever I do, I always look back to the reason why I’m doing this. It’s not just about grabbing the opportunity in front of me, it’s not just about being able to improve myself. It’s all about being able to live the life I plan to have in the very near future.

But behind all these reasons and assumptions for the result of this move, I remain a very simple guy and a firm believer that happiness can be found in simple things, right where you are right now, with the people you are with right now.

Summer Vacation

I have so much time in my hands. In 2 plus months, I’ll be experiencing something like a summer vacation and I plan to make the most out of it as the events that will happen after this entails a lot of limitations in terms of time and space and how I’ll be able to use these two elements. So now I’m planning the things that I want to accomplish in this 2 months and it’s quite exciting. I plan to write an entry at least once a day so that my mind won’t become dull from all the distractions that our current generation can offer. I also plan to make each day count as they are all very significant and limited. I know that life needs to move on and that I need to face the challenges that await me. I need to step out of my comfort zone, and it’s not just a little step, it’s such a big step. But I’m not too worried. As a matter of fact, I’m a bit excited because of the adventures that are only waiting for me to conquer, only waiting for me to make the most out of them.

I have a very strong feeling that this would be a great challenge not just for me but for the significant people in my life but at the same time, I also have a very strong feeling that since this is the case, it means I’m not alone with this, I have people to hold on to, people who will help me be my best, who will help me conquer these adventures, who will help me see the reason why the heck am I doing this, or better yet, why the heck is the universe making me do this. A lot of people say that it’s all about the right perspective. I agree. But I guess more than having the right perspective, I should also have the right inspirations and reasons for my actions and thoughts. I do believe that whatever it is that we do and whatever it is that we think, as long as we have the right reason and inspiration, it’s almost always that such action or such thought would trigger something amazing, something that would always give us strength to go on and on even if it’s so hard, even if it’s so difficult, even if it seems like we’re all alone.

So here’s to me making the most out of my ‘Summer Vacation’. I’m very excited because I know that at the end of this, something amazing awaits

God

I believe that I don’t necessarily need to be Roman Catholic and go to mass everyday Sunday.I don’t necessarily need to kneel and pray. I don’t necessarily need to preach, to listen, to immerse myself to something that is, according to other people, the right way of living. I don’t necessarily need to have a religion, a way of life, a goal, an ultimate goal, a reason to keep me going, an inspiration, true and genuine inspiration. I don’t necessarily need to believe what the bible says and in the same light, any other writing that is claimed to be an account of god. I don’t necessarily need to believe in apparitions, in miracles, exorcism, and in holy places. I don’t necessarily need to believe that there is an end to this world and that if I live rightly, I will be saved. I don’t necessarily need to believe in anything.

When I look outside my window and see the glowing bright stars synchronized with the calming sounds of the crickets, realizing that I’m under one big sky which is under one big galaxy, which is under anything that man haven’t discovered yet and other people from different places, different time zones, different perspectives are looking at the exact same sky with me, I feel that I’m just a spec in the universe. A tiny little spec whose weight and mass is literally insignificant to the galaxy. A tiny little spec whose life may not matter to millions of people on the other side of the world.

But even if I’m just a tiny little spec,why do I still feel significant, valuable, unique, and important?

What is the source of all this meaning? Who is the source?

When I see two rainbows mingling with each other or a wonderful sky where the clouds seem to spell my name or are shaped like a dog, a cat, a peacock, a kangaroo, a unicorn, a whale, I realize that no person existing and ever existed could ever do such thing.

But it has been done nonetheless.

Who did that?

When I close my eyes and amidst the darkness I can still see, and more often that not, clearer than with my eyes open, who gives me such sight?

What is that force we feel when we hug a person?

What is that energy that moves a person because of a touching song?

What makes writers write and singers sing? What makes the body move to a certain beat?

What makes me write the next word?

God

It must be God